One~

At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes -- all you need is one.

Dadu.

A Year Gone By..

I would have taken the time to count the many blessings she brought to all of us n t the lives of the many who loved her.

When you put all the good attributes on the scale and you try to balance all the irritating traits such as the radio which she always kept too loud, the serials that wasn't to our liking,the dancing with my tiny feet on ur back instead of massaging you n getting a scolding, the hot water bottle under the bed sheet which made it all wet, etc., the irritations don't amount to much.

I won't get another chance to tell u all I would have wanted u to hear. The last time I talked to u was the day you died. You called me at 6 am to comeback to u i was half way home, " choti! vapis Aaja..ghar baad mein chale jana..Tere liye kuch samaan rakha hai..dena hai!.." she gave me something to treasure forever.

Today as a years gone by..n my purpose is to learn n gather frm wt happened is to appreciate people more.. to forgive them n accept them as they really are....those who standy by us even aftr hours of fighting n cribbing are the ones whom you should beg to stay with you..

"Dadu..i remember being angry wit you....when i ws nt allowed certain things as i was the youngest..i remember stealing your jam cookies knowing ud get mad at me..remember not returning your calls....remember i always compared that i get less birthday money cz i was the youngest....i remember being so naughty that id almost broken ur once knee while jumping on ur bed.....

But the last week...i remember spending every minute sitting by your side talking to you distracting you from your pain seldom getting any reply..your last words will always echo inside me..

you told me it didnt matter how many fights i fought with you...but rather the times that actually counted were when i was in your times of need....the minutes that i was with you in ur silence..i remember the empty room n u in m arms..i remember calling evryone upstairs..i remember being the only grandaughter to b there..evryone being countries apart..i remember the numbness not knowing wht to do..n u rightly said a person who shares your grief even for a minute..is priceless..

And people who love you never leave you..I love you.

with lots of love n gratitude..choti~

~Friends~

leaving tonight..........
and i can't hold you back.......
can we freeze time tonight.....


i know i don't hv to say it to you guys.....coz i hope you know how important you both are to me...!
Always taken life like a piece of cake..my bad habit..n i knw now that we need to find our own lil places n create our niche..
Big steps taken now will give us a life we need to choose..
Our choices define tomrw..

we've grown up together and you've been there ..........
from bunking breakfast to the looong dinner conversations...
walks on the t.c to exam tension
the rendevous on the terrace n' sunday soiree's at barrista..
and aftr school we've just become closer......
a lot of photo sessions.....a whole bunch of non sensical movies...
cryin coz the world was a mean place to dancing in the winter sunshine....
walking up to randon strangers to complete a dare and dancing the nights away.....
birthday's in the car to walkin in the scorching heat to pickin up b'day cakes...
truth n' dare...killer* n' thumb fight...
shopping....hanging....wasting time...making memories...
from crashing cars into bins..to crashing cars nd seein death in the eye..
tractor rides...fishing....gorging ..on anythng n' everythng...!!
to the very recent overseas* trip...
slogging withot a blink to barefoot walks in cp.....
fighting ovr the lunch venue to the hours long dress rehersal before anythng n' everythng...

the last few years have flown and we' r at this crossroad in life n' i know we've got to say bbyee............
collecting memories like shells on a deserted coastline....i'v got a pile of them in a box under my bed(right by the old lady*)
and pretty soon all i'l have left are those ....
scenes from life i'll play over and over again....to feel what i felt then....and once again be what i was.
you're goin to change n' so will i......the only thng that'l bind us is this same pile...
jus keep your's as safely as i'll keep mine
im gonna take a piece of you with me.....and it'll be mine forever..am too bad at gudbyes..i knw..
This year is going to change everything..
nd its abt time..
Especially fr u two aftr all the nagging uve ben doing..
For the new Life ahead..
nd' Pj for ur clarification..."i'd even tk a flight in the middle of the night"...lol see that even rhymes..


p.s....with a whole lot of gratitude and all my love!