Dadu.

A Year Gone By..

I would have taken the time to count the many blessings she brought to all of us n t the lives of the many who loved her.

When you put all the good attributes on the scale and you try to balance all the irritating traits such as the radio which she always kept too loud, the serials that wasn't to our liking,the dancing with my tiny feet on ur back instead of massaging you n getting a scolding, the hot water bottle under the bed sheet which made it all wet, etc., the irritations don't amount to much.

I won't get another chance to tell u all I would have wanted u to hear. The last time I talked to u was the day you died. You called me at 6 am to comeback to u i was half way home, " choti! vapis Aaja..ghar baad mein chale jana..Tere liye kuch samaan rakha hai..dena hai!.." she gave me something to treasure forever.

Today as a years gone by..n my purpose is to learn n gather frm wt happened is to appreciate people more.. to forgive them n accept them as they really are....those who standy by us even aftr hours of fighting n cribbing are the ones whom you should beg to stay with you..

"Dadu..i remember being angry wit you....when i ws nt allowed certain things as i was the youngest..i remember stealing your jam cookies knowing ud get mad at me..remember not returning your calls....remember i always compared that i get less birthday money cz i was the youngest....i remember being so naughty that id almost broken ur once knee while jumping on ur bed.....

But the last week...i remember spending every minute sitting by your side talking to you distracting you from your pain seldom getting any reply..your last words will always echo inside me..

you told me it didnt matter how many fights i fought with you...but rather the times that actually counted were when i was in your times of need....the minutes that i was with you in ur silence..i remember the empty room n u in m arms..i remember calling evryone upstairs..i remember being the only grandaughter to b there..evryone being countries apart..i remember the numbness not knowing wht to do..n u rightly said a person who shares your grief even for a minute..is priceless..

And people who love you never leave you..I love you.

with lots of love n gratitude..choti~