Dadu.

A Year Gone By..

I would have taken the time to count the many blessings she brought to all of us n t the lives of the many who loved her.

When you put all the good attributes on the scale and you try to balance all the irritating traits such as the radio which she always kept too loud, the serials that wasn't to our liking,the dancing with my tiny feet on ur back instead of massaging you n getting a scolding, the hot water bottle under the bed sheet which made it all wet, etc., the irritations don't amount to much.

I won't get another chance to tell u all I would have wanted u to hear. The last time I talked to u was the day you died. You called me at 6 am to comeback to u i was half way home, " choti! vapis Aaja..ghar baad mein chale jana..Tere liye kuch samaan rakha hai..dena hai!.." she gave me something to treasure forever.

Today as a years gone by..n my purpose is to learn n gather frm wt happened is to appreciate people more.. to forgive them n accept them as they really are....those who standy by us even aftr hours of fighting n cribbing are the ones whom you should beg to stay with you..

"Dadu..i remember being angry wit you....when i ws nt allowed certain things as i was the youngest..i remember stealing your jam cookies knowing ud get mad at me..remember not returning your calls....remember i always compared that i get less birthday money cz i was the youngest....i remember being so naughty that id almost broken ur once knee while jumping on ur bed.....

But the last week...i remember spending every minute sitting by your side talking to you distracting you from your pain seldom getting any reply..your last words will always echo inside me..

you told me it didnt matter how many fights i fought with you...but rather the times that actually counted were when i was in your times of need....the minutes that i was with you in ur silence..i remember the empty room n u in m arms..i remember calling evryone upstairs..i remember being the only grandaughter to b there..evryone being countries apart..i remember the numbness not knowing wht to do..n u rightly said a person who shares your grief even for a minute..is priceless..

And people who love you never leave you..I love you.

with lots of love n gratitude..choti~

~Friends~

leaving tonight..........
and i can't hold you back.......
can we freeze time tonight.....


i know i don't hv to say it to you guys.....coz i hope you know how important you both are to me...!
Always taken life like a piece of cake..my bad habit..n i knw now that we need to find our own lil places n create our niche..
Big steps taken now will give us a life we need to choose..
Our choices define tomrw..

we've grown up together and you've been there ..........
from bunking breakfast to the looong dinner conversations...
walks on the t.c to exam tension
the rendevous on the terrace n' sunday soiree's at barrista..
and aftr school we've just become closer......
a lot of photo sessions.....a whole bunch of non sensical movies...
cryin coz the world was a mean place to dancing in the winter sunshine....
walking up to randon strangers to complete a dare and dancing the nights away.....
birthday's in the car to walkin in the scorching heat to pickin up b'day cakes...
truth n' dare...killer* n' thumb fight...
shopping....hanging....wasting time...making memories...
from crashing cars into bins..to crashing cars nd seein death in the eye..
tractor rides...fishing....gorging ..on anythng n' everythng...!!
to the very recent overseas* trip...
slogging withot a blink to barefoot walks in cp.....
fighting ovr the lunch venue to the hours long dress rehersal before anythng n' everythng...

the last few years have flown and we' r at this crossroad in life n' i know we've got to say bbyee............
collecting memories like shells on a deserted coastline....i'v got a pile of them in a box under my bed(right by the old lady*)
and pretty soon all i'l have left are those ....
scenes from life i'll play over and over again....to feel what i felt then....and once again be what i was.
you're goin to change n' so will i......the only thng that'l bind us is this same pile...
jus keep your's as safely as i'll keep mine
im gonna take a piece of you with me.....and it'll be mine forever..am too bad at gudbyes..i knw..
This year is going to change everything..
nd its abt time..
Especially fr u two aftr all the nagging uve ben doing..
For the new Life ahead..
nd' Pj for ur clarification..."i'd even tk a flight in the middle of the night"...lol see that even rhymes..


p.s....with a whole lot of gratitude and all my love!

Somewhere between ..the incessant forwards ..

and the friendships and the calls..to each other complaining about cRuSHeS and ..BF/GF!!

Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends

and the "I miss you's", the "I love you's" and ...the "What are we doing tonight's?" And somewhere >>between all of th e changing and growing..

>>somewhere between the classes and the skipping >>classes.. and the StUdYiNg for teStS.. And the >>PRETENDING to "StUdY" for TeStS..

>>And the downright NOT StUdYiNg for TeStS.. >>

I forgot -- I forgot what ScHooL was all about. >>

Somewhere between all the appointments, starbuck's coffee, >>and McDonald's.. paying bills and then not paying bills.. >>

Making plans then breaking plans.. Appearing, Disappearing, >>then reappearing..

I forgot -- I forgot what it was like to cry. >>

I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you >>happy.. And that pretending to >>be sMaRT doesn't make you smart ..

I forgot >>that you can't just forget the past in >>fear of the FUTURE.. I forgot that you >>can't control falling in LoV e.. >>

And that you can't make yourself fall in *LoVe* >>I learned that I can LOVE.. >>I learned that it's okay to MeSS uP.. >>And it's okay to ask for HELP!!!.. And it's >>okay to feel like crap..

I learned it's okay to CoMPLaiN >>

and WHiNe to all your friends for a whole day.. >>

I learned that sometimes the things you want >>most you just can't have and the things that >>you look for are right in front of you. >>

I learned that the greatest thing about >>ScHooL and uni and the working world, >>it isn't about the parties or the >>DRiNKiNG or the Hookups.. >>

It's the *FrIeNdShIpS*, which means taking chances. >>

I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget >>are the things which we most need to talk about..

>>I learned that TIME and LOVE can heal all things.. >>I learned that just when you think it can't get worse - it does!.. >>but with the love and support of friends - you survive..

>>I've learned that when you start feeling BaD >>about L O S I N G touch and about those that you've lost! >>They too, are feeling the same way..

>> I learned that letters from friends are the >>most important things. And that sending cards to your >>friends makes you feel better!

But, basically, I just learned >>that my friends.. Both old and new.. are the most important >>people to me in the world AND.. without them, I wouldn't be who >>I am today.. tnx fer bein m frd